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way too much has happened in the past few weeks.good bad and the good. Day by day i think that i simply have too many women in my life. A fact i was once shamelessly proud of, but now i don't give an ant's balls ! Chinese girl has moved to another city and i am thankful i couldn't tolerate her anymore. After she played lots and lots of mind games with me i stopped all contact with her and when she called me my response was "what the fuck do you want ?"

A dinner date was promptly fixed by her at her place the following night where i went on to fuck her brains outta her head. she's quite a cute bitch naked and i like the way she moans. nothing beats a good horny girl on a comfy bed. By the time she was ready to leave the city, she had fallen for me and i still get all mush in her text messages. however that's over. At best i might visit her if i go to her new city. Book closed. she annoyed me quite a bit.

in other related stories, the girl who i mentioned in the last post, yummylips was tamed a few weeks ago too. The setting was her place. i never bring the girls over to my place, they might stalk if they become obsessive. and with the kind of girls i keep on meeting I'd rather not take this risk. yummylips is one of those girls who really need to get intoxicated to get the courage to fuck. I have never seen anyone roll so much hashish in a single night. joint after joint, i felt like i was having sex with a fucking Afghan hashish farmer. This was possibly the worst sex of my life. She is quiet like a mouse. she rolls her lips and shuts her mouth when i am pounding her. And worse !!! she orgasms in 3 minutes. Her body is shaking and shivering like it's a fucking vibrator and she just cums all over. Instantly !!! i realised this after doing it 3 times and boy oh boy.. i didn't know what the fuck else to do the rest of the night. she of course kept smoking the hashish. I was mighty glad to get outta that crack-hole in the morning.

yummylips called me yesterday, she asked me why haven't i called her since that day. It was quite embarrassing to talk to her. For some reason she got pissed at me. Jesus. why can't i find simple sensible nice women ?? i seem like a fuckwit , fucking women and not calling them, but gimme one reason why i should ?

Model girl with a sexy voice, who i had stop texting, called me the other day. She told me she had been travelling and couldn't call me. But after yummylips i don't know if i am ready to fuck another crack whore or not. she does sound so sweet and sexy tho, and it's mighty tempting. and lastly smarthoteuropean girl , has stopped all contact with me. for some reason. I can't quite figure it out. Too bad, her loss !!

It's amazing how in spite of meeting so many women i still can't find someone to capture my heart, at least for a while. As much as i love to be a player, i don't think i am enjoying it. i really am not. why i do it ? simply coz' i am lonely in this stranger town, and the only people i know are these girls, so i fuck. Off late i have been talking on the phone to loveofmylife. I still love her and i have a hunch she harbors feelings too. in fact i just receive a text from her, after i didn't call her for 3 days. I want her. and i know that she is the one. I don't know how or when will we be together. I have dreams to pursue and she wants to fly. Don't know i am confused ? should i go and win her back now ? should i wait ? too much water crossed over the bridge ! everyone i know say she's a bitch and they will find me somebody else new. But only i remember how we used to walk and everyone wanted to be us...But i know my friends care. oh motherfucking whatthefuck arghhh !! somebody gimme a fucking gun !! The only good thing is that all this sadness and longing for someone helps me write better songs at least...