reveries...

So much has been happening since i have written last. I decided not to abandon this blog. No more running about ! I'll simply let people handle the truth ! their fucking problem ! Off late i seem to tell a lot of people that 'something or the other' is their fucking problem. Usually transition periods in my life are decided and fully controlled by me but i can feel a transitioning happening which i didn't intend to initiate. I am alienating myself from everything that was important to me and i don't mind it at all. I am very far from my best friend , physically and emotionally. it was my fault at first and hers for the last year or so and i have given up. I think we will never be bff's ever again. her comments upset me but it's been quite sometime since i stopped feeling the void that has been left by her absence Unlike previous times i am not trying to fill that void at all. i am not enjoying it , i won't put a stop it, i won't make an effort towards anything. I am just going with the flow. Similarly everyone that was ever important to me has been disconnected. Not intentionally. Most of em have been alienated from me coz of their deeds behaviour or pissing-off-ness !

tonight is one of those rare nights when i am in a mood ! A beautiful night out , a rockin concert and midnight walks are not supposed to get a person in such a contemplative state but what the fuck !! i am hearing so much bad news on the health front that it's funny now ! steps are being taken, things they are a changing, any self-respecting motherfucker should stay outta my way !

i am not alone ! i wish i were !

got so split-screened that i took off. Hit the road. hit the villages and towns and the sands on the beach. it took a long day's walk up a fort to see the sea coming back to bed. everyone loves to travel Very few actually do it. Travel does me good. I am more cocky than i ever was. You might have the dolls and the toys. The friends and cups of coffee. The lover and the winding road. The diamonds and the glowing skin. But my hair is poker straight 24/7/365 ! i win !